Thursday, March 18, 2010

ENFJ

I took the Kiersey Bates test...or at least a version of it and I am a ENFJ person. (Extravert, iNtuitive, Feeler, Judger) Obviously no surprises but it was interesting. I googled ENFJ and found some interesting web sites about that personality type the pros and cons and preferred career paths.

On the other hand, I am suspicious of tests like these. I fear they put people in boxes and people will always surprise you. Maybe I hate being predictable. I always see myself as more exciting than that, but maybe I am not seeing the reality.

I always felt that finding your path in life was more organic. Or at least I wanted it to be. I always hoped to cultivate this passion into something more. I haven't done too well on the cultivation part.

I am shocked sometimes about how much I don't know ten years after college. I really felt like I would have many more things figured out. I thought I would be on a much clearer path. I feel like I need to re-wind and do it again, of course with the knowledge I have now. (doesn't everyone) I was so concerned about things I should not have been in college. In my defense, I did have a lot of things going on and all I wanted was escape. Its hard to be thoughtful under duress.

I suppose what matters is what I do now. And yet again I am overwhelmed by the choices and find myself again under duress, although not quite in the same way as before.

I think its so easy for other people...I have to remember we all have our own personal demons to fight. I would swear mine seem particularly big and ugly. But its all relative right?